Friday, December 30, 2011

One last post for 2011...

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!  Looks like this will be my last post for 2011.  Wow!  Hard to believe another year has flow by!  Not too much to report since my last update.  We picked up Atticus' new leg braces, and he's doing so much better walking with the pivoting ankle joints!  He's even started learning how to turn his walker, instead of just going in straight lines!  His new glasses are sooo cute!  He looks like a little Alfie from "A Christmas Story"! Lol!!  Thankfully, Atticus doesn't have to wear his glasses all the time; just when he's working with his OT.  They really have made a difference though.  He's having a much easier time being able to match up shapes, or string beads, etc. 

We had a great Christmas around here!  Atticus got several new books, some new clothes, and of course, some new toys!  He really likes his little scooter his Nana gave him.  It has a bouncy ball under the seat, so he can bounce on it as he rides it (which is REALLY good practice strengthening his legs!), and it squeaks and squawks every time he bounces!  He also got a new puzzle that he loves, and a new Cookie Monster "MP3 player".  It's so cute...he turns the knob, and it plays 3 different songs.

I finally took all the decorations down today.  Atticus was not pleased when I put him in his crib while I disassembled the Christmas tree.  But 1 broken ornament was all Mommy needed before I decided he could spend some time in his bed playing with his new toys!  Lol!  Sandy decided to crawl in and keep him company while I wrapped all the breakables.  She's such a great helper!

I'd been lying if I didn't confess that I've mentally begun the countdown until Atticus' pre-Fontan Cath.  I've been trying not to think about it too much, but I've already begun to scrub the house in preparation for my leaving like a pregnant woman who is nesting!  I guess getting everything in order here is my OCD way of trying to prepare myself mentally for what's ahead.  A something which I have absolutely no control over.  My brain is already playing out scenario after scenario, like what if they decide he needs the Fontan ASAP?  What if we don't have it for another month?  And the really scary, what if they decide Atticus doesn't qualify for the Fontan??!  What do we do then??  I don't know how people without a faith go through something like this.  It's too much sometimes.  I'm so very thankful for a God that I can share my problems with, and then let Him handle them.  It doesn't stop my mind from running through all the upcoming "what ifs?", but it does help me not to loose sleep over them.  I've said it from the beginning, and it hasn't changed now; I know that God has a plan for all of this, even if I can't see what it is right now.  I'll keep trusting in Him, and keep asking all of you to "Keep on prayin'!".